The People I love the most (besides my family)

Im not sure how myself would be if i didnt have them in my life.. I LOVE YOU GUY TILL THE END!

Dofa N Zakki

Since im not doing anything and feel like writing so i guess im gonna write about this guys..
This are the two guys everyone would love to be close to in their life..
They are soo sweet and nice..
Ive known them for almost a year now but only recently got close..and im glad we did..
I can actually say i care about both of them alot..

My time is perth has been so different and fun because of both of them..
Never the same thing..and its fun..i love it..
Thank you for making me smile everytime i see you guys :)

Both of them are already apart of me..
So to zakki and dofa..i love u guys
hope we keep staying this close till the end

That Promise

I had a promise from a certain someone..
and that promise i cant seem to let go..
i want too..i really do..but i keep hoping that promise will one day come true............................

Re-new

WOW..its 2009 already..cant remember when i last wrote in my blog..
honestly during that point i didnt really wanna write no more..kinda was in a bad situation..couldnt find words inside myself..but i promised myself when 2009 comes everything will be gone and start a new journey..and suprisingly i have..well so far..

When i started writing a sec ago i knew what i wanted to write about..but i just forgotten..
oh ya it was about love..again..

I need to confess things but my confession is not about feeling something for someone but not feeling anything for anyone..after what happend last year.. im actually really extremely scared to like or even love someone new..not saying i still have my past love in my heart..but because of my past im scared to start new with someone..scared to say the three most beautiful words ever created to someone..

Yes theres someone who is interested in me..but im not..i dont want to..when 2009 came..meaning of love for me is lost..and i kinda miss loving someone..miss having butterflies in my stomach when i hear his name..i just miss anything to do with liking or loving someone..ive always said after a relationship im num and bla bla..but when i stop saying it..i actually got num on love..

In the begging i said im starting new and what happend last year i totally forgot..but..oh yes there will always be a but..anyways after everything and for the first 2 months of this year ive been fine and great and dont get me wrong im still feeling that way..but one part of me still cant seem to get out from it..

Got close to someone who is connected to last years story..and everytime i see this certain someone my mind keeps reminding me of what happend last.. am i making sense?
maybe only to myself i am..

anywayssss enough about negativity....

Uni has been keeping me busy..and omg too much work to do..but hey im still loving it :)
Going back to KL in 2 months..
Then off to LA and Las Vegas :):)
that i must say im soo excited about..hehe

Dont wanna leave :(

I'm gonna misss u guys soooooooo much!i don't wanna leave just yet! i know I'm just going back for the holidays but it feels like I'm going back for good!:(

I'm gonna miss how we all have fun during the weekend and do all the crazy things..

I'm just gonna miss everything.. I hope u guys have a good holiday yaaaaaa... i love you all soo much.. remember that..

Your Final Goodbye

Running towards my room

slamed the door and locked it

fell on the floor with tears running down my face

a letter i saw at the corner on my eyes

a white envelope with a single rose on top

Walked towards the table to read the letter

my name was written there

opened it

a picture of you and me fell out

It was the first picture we ever took when we were together

still remember that day

The place you brought me

still planted in my memories

I soon read the letter,

at the beginning

You explained ur mistakes

then explained your love for me

but when i read on

it soon explained why you left

You said i deserve someone better

you said i deserve to be happy with someone else

tears run down my cheeks

I never understood your actions towards me till this day

you finally wrote what you felt

you finally opened your heart to me

You said for along time you've been wanting to scream this out

you also said since the moment we met

all you could ever ask for is to be mine

You wished after all this time i saw everything

wished how i looked closer to see you were in love with me

I cant seem to read on the letter

my eyes were to watery

so, i dropped the letter and fell on the ground

how stupid can i be?

why didnt i see what was in front of me?

The love i was looking for all this time was infront of me

but now its to late

i thought i would never loose you

but i just did

When my phone rang and i was told you just took your last breath

i could not say anything but just fell and cried

i didnt get to say my final goodbyes

i didnt get to say what i wanted to say all this time

My everything, my friend, my best friend

the day we met was the day i fell in love with you

Wish i could turn back time and told you earlier

To my other half ... Tasha

tashy tashy..
to describe how much you mean to me could take a longgg longgg longg time..
but i guess i can start from the year we first met.. which is 2003..

do you remember when we first said hello?
when i first sang "malaysia truly asia"?
i remember that year u hated me like to death..
you thought i stole ur best friend when u know now that dyan and me could relate with each other in another way.. no offence but its true.. eheh

But soon after everything.. we learn love each other and till these day.. we r closer than ever..
our friendship is what everyone envy.. i mean look at us.. we r too close to be true..
we r each others half..
for the past 6 years has been great and i mean WOW!
and i know years to come will get better!

i admit that i dont write or do alot for you to prove how much you mean to me..
but tell me what is the point?
i dont have to tell or show u how much u mean to me..
you already know it..
i love u tashy.. ur my best friend and my other half..
i dont know what i would do without you..
you have been there for me through everything
yes we had our ups and down but it has never lasted for more than hr..
cause after that we will start laughing again
there are times when u annoy me to death and there i times i do the same..
but thats how our friendship is..

im glad i have someone like you as a friend
i can talk to u about everything
i can cry to you
i can even tell u what ill never tell anyone else..
and obviously babe.. we look alike! like twins!
tell me how can we not be this close?
we even share the same crushes..ehehe
what? all 15 or more of them is it? ehehhe
shhh lets not tell anyone else! malu!ehehe

sitting here writing about you kan..
all the memories since 2003 is starting to come..
i meann i remember every single thing we did and what happened
and how it all started.. i mean everything..
eheh and also.. remember babe how all the teachers in st.hildas can never tell us apart?
ahahhaa that iss soooo freaking funnnyy laaa..
and everytime we r seperated they think we had a fight..
ahaha
stupid st hildas teachers.. ruin our lifes.. ehehhee
i seriouslyy dontt miss school at all!
i know u do! and i have no idea why! ehehhe

i hope kan later in the years we will do everything we ever talked about.. the whole trips and all..
i hope what ever we said will come true.. cause i know i wanna spend those moment with my best friend..who else can i ever ask for to share my dreams with?...

babe.. i know i can right more and more about you.. but it will take ages..
so let me end this blog with saying..
thank you for everything
i love u tooo death..
and i hope our friendshipp will get stronger as years too come!!
i loveee u tashyyyyyyyyy!!
remember that!!