Update

Update
An update for today.. Classes and luctures are totally over for this year.. no more going to class no more waking up in the morning!life is great atm.. but then.. EXAMS :S
Not looking forward to it laaa...scared to death..
after this weekend the word "fun" is not in my dictionary anymore..
My new fav word is gonna be "Study fana Study"...
Tomorrow at 12 im meeting up with sasty to get the BBQ stuff for the night..
Me and sas are gonna wear devil horns...i think we'll be the only ppl whos doing that!

Well to conclude everything.. i hope the BBQ and count down party and of course sasty's bday bash is gonna go well and hopefully everyone is gonna have fun!

Unfinish song

Silent’s is all i hear when you speak
Confusion about you and me is in my mind
Wondering when will we ever say what we feel
Words show love
Actions show friendship
Confusion is still what I’m feeling

At times i hear you say you want something more
But when i listen once again friendship is what you repeated
We speak like lovers
But act like friends
When will we ever say what we feel?

Chorus:
My baby, my love, my friend
When will we join our hearts into one?
Tired of hiding what i feel
Wanting something more than words
Let go of your feeling and your dreams
Cause i want be part of it

There will be a time when ill hold you tight
Express everything what i feel
Whispers to your ear is what you’ll hear
I’m falling for you my dear
Now tell me, do you love me too?

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i wish there was words to express what im feeling atm..
normally ppl would just use "arghhhhhhhhhh!!!" to show whats they r feeling..
but the thing is i am beyond that word..

At times i thank god im so patient but other times im so sick of it..
i always question myself..
why the F am i so patient?why?
because im so patient ppl tend to stab on my back,use me,bully and what soever to express it..

I wish at times i was like my sister farrah.. someone who tells what she feels and doesnt give a damn what ppl would say back.. my parents would always tell me to be strong and dont let anyone use me..

So far ive been doing so.. but the strong part i dont think im just there yet..
You see i dont ever release my anger to anyone..
i let out my anger by crying..
so that i wouldnt do anything stupid or say anything stupid to others..


Ive been to nice to everyone and they seem to take advantage of that..
and im bloody tired of it..
so bloody tired..
I guess the only thing that keeps me going and to forget everything is my closes friends here..
they help me smile when i needed it..
so thank you so much guys for that..i love u guys..

im so annoyed,angry and sick of everything at the moment.. like everything..

Life these days

OMG im loving life atm!
since i came back to perth everything has been perfect and sooo fun!!
i owe it all to my friends!
thank you thank you!
and it doesnt stop there!!
more events r coming up!!

upcoming at the moment is
1. Halloween BBQ
2. Sasty's 18th bday bash!!

omgg im sooo excitedd
planning all these things!!

bad side to it is.. my exams r coming soon :(
arghh
i wanna finish it fast..
and then i wanna change my whole identity (still thinking how)
hahha

hmmm.. what else is new?
hmmm...
hmmm...



oh to tasha.. i really love u! thank u for everything
Oh iya..
Lately ive been having tooo much fav songs.. dont know which one to even listen to first!
ok thats random..

The reason who i am today

Not sure why im doing this.. but i guess im thinking about my past and present.. The ones who help me grow and the ones who i learn my mistakes from.. I owe what ever i am now to them..

Emir Syazwan

My first love, My first boyfriend..Took me a long long time to get over him.. If im not mistaken about 4 years.. that long ey..Emir syazwan was in my heart from the moment i first saw him..my friends never understood why i was that in love with him.. honestly i never undertood either.. but he was a really nice guy.. and im glad we're still close as ever..

Mohd Haziq Hassan

Haziq my dearest friend.. you see me and him went through alot.. and the shittiest too.. But you see during that time there was so many negative things.. at a point i couldnt even look at him.. but soon it faded away.. how can i not care for him.. I love him as a friend and ill never stop caring about him.. because of what we both went through our friendship is stronger than ever..Haziq if you are reading this.. you know ill always be here for you..

Jay

Jay.. Ur a sweetheart.. and im so so sorry for breaking your heart.. you never did deserve it..I guess i was just not sure about my feelings towards you.. You were such a sweetheart.. and that comes from my heart.. thank you so much for being there for me when i needed you..even thought it was only for 2 months.. but it was a good one..

Izzet

I dont have a pic of you and i dont think ill ever want to see a picture of you!

Only one sentence to say to you

FUCK YOU!

Hakim

Hakim, how i loved you..You were great.. so great.. you loved me the way i wanted to be love..You came all the way for me..It was good.. a good and healthy relationship..I thank you alot for everything and i mean everything..its sad how the relationship ended.. we were perfect as a couple.. thank you sooo much for everything once again..

i will always cherish our memories together.. the best 8 months of my life.. :)

Naji Bawazier

Naji, Naji..

Thank you for opening my eyes..

You helped me grow up..

You taught me alot of things..i owe it all to you..

You made me a stonger person in so many ways..

Im all blank when it comes to you.. not sure why..

You see guys, his the hardest person to get over..

not sure why but the hardest..

The shortest relationship but the hardest to get over..

Maybe because i never knew how it would end if there wasnt a reason for us to end it..

It might have just been the best..

see. im reapeating myself ..

Im glad we're over the whole situation..

and im glad we are still as friends.. you r truly a sweet guy.. Please take good care of urself..

And you should know i will always be here for you..

Thats it!

asyraf adlan..

i love uuuuu brother

Hunny, ur a Womanizer

It all began as i remember
Walking from a distance i see you looking at me
With your eyes so seducive which brought me walking towards you
Words came out
Actions took over
Without hesitation you had me

With different methods you use on me
Moonlight dinners, romantic movies, limousine rides and those expensive diamond necklaces
You will always let me have my way
Being too perfect when i start to realize
Its to good of a dream

Trapped by your words
Weakend by your touch
I fell deeply in love with you
Not knowing what i soon i found out

Words came out
Your life fully revealed
A womanizer they call you
Soon to be played by his own game

Im not gonna be one of your trophies you won since you played this game
Hunny, im different
Cause this game this time
You cant win

Played my game the way i should
Making you fall was my goal
Hoping the womanizer finally falls in love


You thought you locked me tight in your control
But this time im controling you
You soon lost your touch
Falling to every word and move i gave

Slowly i see your falling in love with me
Not realizing your just a game this time
Cause after im done with you
Ill be someone's girl

Loving every second of your love for me
Waiting for the day to push you down
Which is today
Hunny, i've got the results from your own game
Guess what?
You lost..

My confession

If i could speak louder than words
Then i would show you how it feels deep inside
The feeling where theres no other reason but just to be with you
when everytime you close your eyes you feel the person you love is just next to u
and when everytime you see them you tend to shake and blood rush when they smile

You see, for awhile now you've caught my heart in so many ways
I hope u notice, but everytime i see you near me these feelings take control of me

When you turn away i cant stop looking at you
even if you turn back my way i cant seem to move away too
I know you can see im starting to feel you
The way i look at you
The way i say my hellos
even when i smile at you..

I know you can see all this
I know you know this
But im just gonna tell you by my smile
By my eyes
From my heart
I'm falling deeply in love with you

An update

yeaterday was acap's 22nd bday! so Happy bday my darling brother!
I hope you had fun yesterday and i hope hope hope you love your present :S
when i saw that Polo shirt, i thought of you straight away..
you would look sooo hot in that.. and im being serious!eheh

Well yesterday's "party" went well.. but i didnt get to trash him cause he looked to good to be trashed and i felt bad.. oh acap! sorrry you had to drive for me! i couldnt open my eyes anymore.. ehehe.. you know i love you bro.. :)

another update..

I cancelled my trip to melbourne..
Yes i was so excited at first but i thought about it over and over again..
I dont really wanna go anymore..
Im not to sure whats the reason but part of it cause i dont wanna agitate a certain someone..
Maybe ill come another time when i feel its right..

Looking at a bright side.. i can shop with the money i saved! ehehe
or maybe exchanged the money to RM so i can go wild in Pavilion when i get back to KL..
Well it all depends.. :)

hmm.. what else should i update..
OH!!
GODSKITCHEN!!!
OMG!! it was freaking awesome!!
It was my first rave and it wont be my last!!
i loved it!!
i had sooooo much fun with my friends..
yeaaa everyone was all high,drunk,tipsy.. it was funny to see them!
and yess i was totally sober! my alcohol was REDBULL.. a freaking energy drink.. eheh
you see i dont drink, nor smoke!
good girl kan kan? :P

anyways.. ill update more later...

This goes out to you..

This situation seems to be familiar to me somehow
Its like ive been reapeating my life over over again
sitting here looking at the window
thinking how my life would be if we didnt end

It seems like my life keep repeating the past over again
Tired of crying
tired of sitting on the floor with pictures of you in my hand
I wanna be done missing you

This goes out to you
You, and just you
wish you could see how much suffer im going through
wish you could help pull me up once again
cause i know i cant do this alone

So this goes out to you
you, and just you

so please..
please understand, i still need you
I dont wanna miss you no more..

Melbourne!!

aaaa melbournee here i come....!!
Been planning with my girls going to melb and so far so good..
Im getting tickets to STEREOSONIC 2008 Melbourne!!
im sooo excited!!!
ehehe

I'm going there maybe like middle of nov..
Maybe 19th-30th..
or is that too long?
well not to sure when im going but melb trip os confirm with the girls!!

arghhh i cant wait to have fun, meet people.. and be all different!
:)

Smoky

Guess what??
I bought a cat!! ehehe
im so excitedd..
Her name is Smoky..
Cause shes like grey/brown..
soooooo cutee..

When i first saw her i knew i had to have her..
:):):)

anyways shes playing in the apt now..
im gonna put a pic of her soon